Joseph Comes to a Decision

Genteleschi ‘s picture Flight into Egypt 1620 shows an utterly exhausted Joseph.

She told me of the angel’s visit, just
Before she left; but what she rightly meant,
I could not say – the Holy Spirit, a son
Who would be mighty, great, of royal descent –

Then with a knowing smile she went. I tried,
I tried so hard, to plane away my doubt
Which stuck like splinters in my inmost parts,
Yet still the question came; was she devout,

Deceitful, or deluded? I could not tell
And though I prayed, I feared whatever word
The Lord might say to me, as if my plans
Might contradict His will, or I’d misheard

Somehow His still, small voice. And so I’d rise
Each day and tell my friends we’d soon be wed,
Yet fretting inly at my choice. But now
Mary has returned. And what she said

I scarce can credit. That the child’s not mine,
I have no doubt. That the child is God’s –
can that be true? What if Mary’s right?
No, this fantastic tale sits at odds

With God’s grace, and I must let her go,
But not disgrace her – maybe she’s divined
Some truth I cannot see. Tomorrow, then,
I will – well, what exactly? My troubled mind

Is wrestling through this long and horrid night,
My splintered plans still sticking in my soul.
Yet like my father Jacob I hold out
For El-Shaddai to bless me, make me whole.

And just before the glimmer of the day
I hear a certain voice, “Don’t be afraid.”
Then suddenly I understand. In Him
The saving power of God will be displayed

And I must own Him as my child, provide
For Him and name Him Jesus – a special role
Indeed, yet one I see is fraught with risk –
A jealous king who will not yield control

Religious leaders proud of such good works,
Romans prone to crush any who rebel –
Will they feel threatened by this wondrous news
Or worship God as their Emmanuel?

He alone knows the answer. I must trust
And with the breaking of the clear new dawn
Take Mary home as my betrothed, to wait
With her until this precious child is born.

Facing winter

A heavy greyness hang across the wolds,
Dissolving form and substance on the near
Horizon, and in its cold, uncertain light,
Even autumn’s hues are drab and drear.

The weary year is turning once again.
Forgotten is the August drought – save
By the oak and ash who in the searing heat
Discarded bough and branch, their scars engraved

Upon the trunks that glisten in the mist –
And fierce September storms are really just
A memory now, as not a breeze disturbs
The stealthy, slow advance of creeping dusk

That wreathes around the hedges of the heart.
It’s time to build a house against the night
Before the clocks fall back and we are plunged
Into along, deep gloom where faith, not sight

Will lead us through the winter of our soul
Remembered warmth of spring our hope, our goal.

Rutland, October 2025

The tinted screen

Social media is distorting our view of the world…

Emerging from the fog of dreams I first
Began to check the news, to see what signs
Of God might perhaps be found amid
So many claims and counterclaims online

And then, unthinking, went down rabbit holes
That seemed to educate and entertain…
I could have lost myself ago had not
The grey autumnal light begun to claim

My darkened room. And so I chose to lay
Aside this mirror of my blighted soul
To look beyond my own protective walls
Outside to find the good and true and whole –

Four blue tits flitting swiftly through the bush
Beneath my bedroom window; raucous crows
Disputing with an angry magpie; gangs
Of pigeons flocking where the sparrows throw

Discarded seeds; while in the scudding clouds
A hint of rainbow even could be seen.
And as I made my breakfast so I thought
Of those imprisoned by their tinted screens

Who will this day send vitriolic tweets
Or paint graffiti on their neighbour’s wall
And demonise the tribes of left and right
But little think one God is judge of all.

On Trendlebere Down

On Trendlebere Down we came across
The stonechat’s natural habitat – thick tracts
Of bracken stretching out beyond the wide
Horizon, broken only by the tracks

Of human interlopers – and bent, gnarled clumps
Of golden gorse, fringed by the flowering ling
Where, resplendent in his summer dress,
The cock begins – not exactly to sing

But make the sound of granite pebbles rubbed
Together – a gentle echo of how the moor
Was formed, when in God’s hands the elements
Combined, and why this land stirs up such awe.

Oxford Station 19 Jun 25

Not directly connected to this poem,
but a reminder of the retreat house where I was staying

The sultry, sun-baked station hums with haste
And hurry – excited schoolkids taking flight
For they’ve misread the live departure boards;
Two gentleman in top hat and tails – despite

The heat – walking with affected gait;
Bright young things taking selfies for their mates,
Their fascinators flapping in the breeze;
A used car dealer with his trader plates:

Even a grey, tall friar, dressed in white,
Who tries – and fails – to keep a cool restraint
As in the melee one converging thong
Swoops down the platform to the coming train.

I pick my burden up again. Last night
While trudging through a slurried field I heard
A trinity of kite just overhead
Who called like seraphim, and then observed

How in the sun’s declining light an old
Gnarled oak was set ablaze but did not burn.
Now as I jostle for my seat, my heart
Already yearns – I know I must return.

Elegy for a hedgehog

The dusk has just begun to creep along
The dull suburban street, the grimy dust
And fumes still warm upon the evening breeze,
But though so early, yet our hero must

Awake, appease somehow his appetite.
But where to go? Once number one had lawns
Which promised rich rewards – now the quest
To fatten up before the harsh new dawn

Is mocked by plastic turf and gurning gnomes
And so he scurries on past number three,
A tarmac waste where SUVs are parked
With no regard for nature’s destiny,

Arriving then at number five, where rows
Of leeks and beans, all regimented, straight,
Suggest perhaps a feast. Yet first he sniffs
The air; the bitter tang of glyphosate

Explains the cleanness of these pristine leaves;
Thus hunger drives him on – but not next door,
Where hungry pugs are prone to chase and maul,
And strangers come to smoke and score.

So number nine – a memory draws him here
Of catfood scattered by a clear, fresh pond
And chance encounters with his fellow kind,
But to his hopeful grunts no-one responds,

Not any more. And though he feeds and feeds
On leatherjackets in the long rough grass
And newts beneath the stagnant algal bloom,
The thought persists; very soon his days shall pass.

Mary’s darkest hour

I thought myself another village girl
Who, when given Joseph as my spouse,
Had such a simple plan – to please my man,
To raise our kids and build a blessèd house.

It would have been a calmer life at least,
And one I’ve often dreamt about. And yet
The Lord intervened, gave me the task
Of bearing Immanuel. Do I regret

This choice of His? Ask me another day.
When Simeon said a sword would pierce my soul
I heard the voice of grief but did not grasp
The payment of my love’s most bitter toll.

But now as every hammer blow tears through
The flesh of my dear Son, I feel the nails
Press down deep inside and were not John
Upholding me, I think my faith would fail.

“Blessèd are you among women!” they said
And I exulted at the Lord’s rich grace.
Yet how can I recite salvation’s song
When God the Father turns away His face?

20 Apr 25

Holy Saturday

The day before, relentless rain beat hard
Upon the fragile earth; soaked near to the skin
We sought the shelter of our homes, our heads
Bowed very low by a storm so foul and grim,

And though today the cloud is slowly lifting,
The birdbath’s surface ripples in the breeze,
Just like a bowl of overflowing tears,
And softly falls the blossom from the trees,

Which briefly, with such fleeting beauty, decks
The sodden grass. Yet on the broken ground
A pair of hopeful goldfinch search for seeds
Beginning now to swell and sprout, their crowns

Blood-red, a vivid sign amid the gloom
That on the morrow life once more shall bloom.

19 Apr 25

Thirty-One

How do you measure love? Something so real
Yet undefined? So true yet through the years
Evolving? So strong yet in tenderness
Expressed? Unseen yet to the watcher clear?

Perhaps in ironed shirts or cups of tea
In dinners cooked or dishes washed and dried,
Perhaps in photos of a thousand places
Or paths we’ve walked together side by side,

Perhaps in songs that speak of special times
Or jokes that no-one else could understand,
Perhaps in wisdom gained in grief and loss
Or overwhelming joy, unsought, unplanned,

Perhaps in stories of our mutual friends
Or family trees now tightly intertwined,
Or maybe over all these things a sense
Of being one in Christ in heart and mind.

5 Mar 25

Armada Way Revisited

https://www.plymouthherald.co.uk/news/plymouth-news/gallery/plymouths-armada-way-revamp-update-9896608

Amid the excavators tearing up
The ground, an overwintering tree still stands,
Surviving on its grey grass island
In a sea of concrete, brick and builder’s sand,

As history once again is overlaid
According to some grand expensive plan.
And yet its roots run far beneath to where
The old Elizabethan leat once ran.

So though a busy din rings out around
The site, maybe one day in the spring,
The blackbird will return and over all
The noise its ancient melody shall sing.

22 Feb 25

For the original poem on Armada Way click here